Happiness

Happiness: A state of mind or feeling such as contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy.

But is it that simple? Is happiness in ones life really just a state of contentment, of satisfaction, pleasure, and joy? To be perfectly honest I do not agree with the simplicity of the definition in the dictionary. I think as words come into our lives, as new words are discovered, and as each individual in this world experiences new adventures, each person develops their own meaning for those words.
Happiness to me? Well the first things that pop into my mind when that word is brought up are; Family, friends, music, writing, spontaneous adventures, volunteering, sun, city lights, support, calla lilies, financial stability, living life in the moment, laughter all around me, dance parties and singing loudly, making a difference in someones life, keeping busy, health, no worries, and most importantly love. There are more things, actually the list could continue to go on for miles. Everyone has things that all add up to equal happiness in their lives. Each person is different. Each individual is unique. Each individual is precious in their own way. Some are happy with buying fancy things or spoiling their children (in a good way), and some are purely happy with being able to put a meal on the table for their family and just seeing a smile of their child's face.
Here is my logic. Whatever makes you happy, whether it is singing your heart out, writing your thoughts to the world, spending time with friends and family, et cetera, do it. You only get one life to live and why bother waste it worrying about every little thing going on. If you have to choose between taking the safe route and being happy, to be completely honest if you are going to be miserable every single time you take the safe route, take a chance and do what is going to bring that smile across your face, in your heart, and in your soul. Evidently when you make yourself happy you tend to exhuberate that happiness on to others. And those then exhuberate it so on so forth. Life is a gift we were given from God (or from whom or whatever you believe in) . Take it for what it is and take risks, jump fences, and do what you want and not what others want for you. Those whom care about you will accept you for you and for what makes you happy and ultimately they will be happy for you too. People grow. People change. And that is okay. Actually it is great! I love who I am, and I am proud of who I am and I am proud of how I was brought up to be, because it made me a good person. I know the meaning of a good life, the meaning of love and whats right or wrong. I feel noone should ever be ashamed of who they are or where they came from, because that ultimately has made you who you are today.
When I close my eyes and ponder happiness, ponder my getaway; all I can think of is family gatherings, friends all around, music blaring, the potential for a stage to be more than a fantasy, big city life, yet a calm beach atmosphere, a life of laughter, and no sadness. A life of helping others and ultimately making a difference in the world.
What is your getaway? What is your happiness? Think about it...And then do it!

xoxo
Perfectly Imperfect
Crystal Kimberly

Be part of History

How it ends:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JUbc7pkj07w

Who are we?

When you look in the mirror, who do you see? Have you ever wondered what people see when they look at you? Do you ever just sit and think, who am I? And what do I want to do ? I mean, call me crazy but I do it all the time. Thinking can probably be seen as a problem of mine, ha ha. I tend to do it all too much. Of course, thinking is essential in life, however; is there such a thing as TOO much thinking. I was asked last night how I can write so much. How do I not run out of things to write about? I mean I write every single day. I guess I just have a lot inside, a lot that I want to share, and a lot that I have gone through. I guess my life is like a book, and we are in the beginning chapters. For only being twenty-one I have experienced a lot, met many people, and lived a great life. But to be honest It has not been nearly even close to what I want to do, see, and venture into. I am sitting outside on my front porch a cool, breezy, June day in my home town. Now this town is nothing like you may think. It is small, and when I say small I mean it. Ha ha. We have our own mini movie theatre, where the movies I might add, are less than 5 dollars. We have a high school, a middle school, and three elementary schools. A police/fire station, a Walmart (of course), and a park. Amongst other little places this town is preoccupied with familiar faces you tend to see on a daily basis. Growing up as a small town girl, as it may seem easy, it sometimes poses some hardships. There is UN-needed and UN-wanted drama, everyone knows everything about everyone, and you have to make your own fun. (For instance; things like car surfing.)
Now, let me tell you I am not one for drama. I actually hate it and try to avoid it at all expenses. However; as I said living in a small town there is always drama. People enjoy starting drama to keep life interesting, when in reality I find it obnoxious and a waste of time and life in general. Life is a gift we are all given and we should live it with joy and love. Forget the petty stuff. Forget the lame rumors, and forget the obnoxious things being said. The only thing that matters is what you think of yourself. You can't let others control how you feel, what you do, and who you will become. That is where coming from a small town comes in handy. The people I have met here have made me such a better person. Whether I was in love with them, or they were my closest friends. I have grown from each and every experience and I have this small town to thank for that. Yes, there is your occasional drama starting punk (lol-didn't know how to phrase that), but the people here are for the most part real. As opposed to those in other big cities only looking out for themselves, small town friends are ones who are going to not only push through lives for themselves, but they are going to be doing it while holding your hand and bringing you along. I can't help but think who I would have become if I grew up in a place like L.A. or N.Y.C? As much as I would like to convince myself that I would turn out to be the same person, there is always that curiosity. I mean lets be honest. The people that grown up in L.A., in Hollywood, etc have a completely different lifestyle than those from small towns. But anyway...
So who are we? All I can say is when you look in the mirror, I hope you are smiling, because life is nothing short of a great time full of love all around us. Who am I? I am a newly turned twenty-one year old with a big heart and with huge hopes and dreams for myself, but more importantly for my friends and family. I am one who sees so much potential in those around me, that all I want to do is help in anyway for them to reveal that potential inside, and to get them to stop hiding behind their shadows. For instance; Cory Jackson. He is basically my little brother. I love him so much. He is one of the most amazing guitarists I have been able to witness. Not only is he Ahh-mazing at guitar, in a band called Stuck on Stupid (check em out;]), but he is the sweetest, most caring and driven kid I have ever come into contact with. He would give you the shirt off his back if you lacked one. Moreover; he is the kind of person that gives you a hug when he knows something is wrong and no one else does. Ultimately If you were to look up the word inspiration in the dictionary his picture would be there. I know this sounds crazy, but I am being as true as the sky is blue. He is all these amazing things and inspires me in more ways than one. I can never NOT smile when around him, I can never be upset when he is around. He just exuberates this presence I can't even begin to explain. But as we know noone is perfect, and Cory's only imperfection is his lack of belief in his potential as much as I and others believe in him. He could be on stage with anyone he wanted to be on stage with, and he has so much inside, but he is hesitant to branch out and attack it. I mean ofcourse he has confidence, as he should. However; there is so much more he could do, but doesn't believe he could. That is what these small town friends are for. They are there to help you get off your butt and believe in yourself as much as they do. They are there to make you smile when you feel like you have forgotten what a smile is. They are there when life seems too tough to get out of bed. They are there to turn your rainy day into a sunny one. As corny as this all sounds, it is really true.
The point of this blog is to basically say: never forget where you come from. My hometown is a small one, but it has a big heart<3 . Yes every place has its faults, but it will always be home. I am not going to lie, I do want to venture on to new places, but when I do that I will never forget where I grew up, who my true friends are and the love I have received from this small town I call home.

I am a Tartan, and I am proud of it. lol


Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

Whisper in my ear, love.

I just recently turned twenty one - as in three days ago- and everyone asks me if I feel different? Well the answer is no. I feel the same. The same as I did that three days ago. But I have realized I do feel like a different person. I have changed over this past year, and I am happy with that change. I have experienced things I never thought I would, I have talked about things I never thought I would, and I have the most amazing friends-most from my high school years. Don't get me wrong i love the people and friends i have met since my entrance into college, but the friends in which I met in high school have a special place in my <3heart. Those relationships weren't forced, and they have had years and years to develop. I know whenever I come home I will come home to the most amazing faces, hearts, and souls. I know these are the people who were there for me, and will always be there for me. These are the people who don't whisper behind my back, these are the people who truly love me for who i am and who I want to become. These are the people who will never doubt me, and these are the people who have forever embedded themselves in my heart. To some they lose contact with these people and its unfortunate. But me, I will forever hold onto the relationships I developed in my early years, it is imperative. But anyway, the reason for this blog update is solely to restate all I am grateful for. I am grateful for my amazing family, my amazing friends, and my amazing life. Sometimes we run into hard times and we forget all we have to actually be thankful for. Well I am thankful for every sunrise and sunset, I am thankful for every heartbreak and heal. I am thankful for every beat of nature and every look in every eye. I am thankful for music and I am thankful for my voice. I am thankful that I have freedom of speech, and I am thankful that I am not afraid to voice it. I am thankful for my life. I am thankful for your life. And I am thankful for what you are thankful. This world lacks the amount of love we really should have. Love is a precious gift we don't express enough. There is so much love to give yet people don't give it. There is so much love available to exuberate, yet people hide it. Love is an amazing thing and we should treasure it. WE should tell the ones we love we love them on a daily basis. We should be kind to all, not worry about drama, not worry about bad things rather rejoice in the good. Look into the eyes of those passing and smile. Open a door for someone. Little acts of kindness could change someones life. And if you do not believe this then you should learn it. People find the smallest acts of kindness credible. They find these acts better than fake proposals of kindness. Love those who deserve to be loved, and forgive those who have loved in the past. Everyone has a past, but everyone also has a future. There is room for forgiveness. There is room for hope. And There is definitely room for love. Break down walls people cave themselves behind, open your hearts, and sing kindness. It will change our world. I promise. (and I keep my promises)

i love you.

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

What came from me writing what I was thinking.

Sometimes our hearts hurt more than we reveal. Sometimes our smiles lack the feelings in which we conceal. Sometimes what we hide is who we are. And sometimes where we are suppose to be is not very far. But who we are is what we show. Because to the world that is what we bestow. It's like rainy day. In the month of May. Unwanted, but expected. Vulnerable, but protected. We walk on the edge, in hopes of not falling. But if we do, we know it's our calling. As laughter sweeps the lives of many. Tears embody the hearts of plenty. Fill our lives with hopes and joys. Dreaming of maintaining ones poise. We strive to be who we want to be. But it's affected by that of which people see. Truth unfolds in the lies of some. While lies unfold from what some become. Whatever life brings. The heart should be what always sings. No more echoes from those around you. Time to learn from all you've been through. A love once loved. Or a hurt you forever have shoved. A lesson comes with each mistake. And a lesson comes with each accomplishment. Always be real, and never fake. And never hide behind a wall of cement. Those who hide. Are unable to confide. Those who hide. Are hurting inside. Breathe in each moment, and in each moment take a breath. If you must, let the tears fall. If you must, punch down each and every wall. Life is a path, in which each must take. Which ones you choose, is a choice you must make.

Part of That World.

So as I sit here on Monday night, technically Tuesday morning, all I can think about is the future. What is it that it has in it's hands for me. What presents does it have for me to unwrap, and ultimately what dreams will it make available for me to live. I am at a point in my life where I am very happy with myself. I love my family, my friends, and all those surrounding me. However; I am ready to start doing things for me. I have always been the person to put everyone before myself, and I will continue to do so. But I have to start living MY life. I need to stop worrying about if I am making everyone else proud, and I need to ultimately make myself proud. There is so much I want to do in life. More than I could ever put into words. Are all those things realistic? Possibly yes, possibly no. Yet there is a life in my heart that is calling my name and has been calling my name for years. I am ready to take it off the back burner. I am ready to venture into what will make me happy. I am ready to rise to the challenges, get my feet wet, and jump out of my comfort zone. Those who know me know I am a very determined and driven individual. Once my mind is set on something I will work undoubtedly harder that I have ever before to attain that goal.
Today I sat down with a good friend. A friend who has been there for me through a lot. We discussed how much has happened in both of our lives in just the last couple of months. And it may not be significant to some people, but It has been to us. We have met some amazing people, done some incredible things, and dreamt countless nights of what could possibly come from our goals in life. Not many people my age KNOW what they want out of life. Not many people know what they want to do for the rest of their life. I do. I know the exact moments that will send chills up my spine to leave me utterly speechless. I know that when I close my eyes and see my dreams in my mind, i know that it won't be a dream much longer. However; it will become a reality. I have always been pushed to reach beyond the ceiling. I've been taught that I have no limit as a person. As my life has progressed, the ages rolling on by, I have learned so much. I have grown into the person I am today. Soon, as in eleven days, I will be turning 21. Yes the big TWENTY - ONE. Well who would of thought that by the age of twenty-one I would have this mind-set.
I went from being in love to heartbreak to being in love again to heartbreak to once again being in love. But this time. I am not in love with a significant other. However; I am in love with my life. I am in love with my dreams and the potential of my future. When my heart was first broken, I thought it couldn't be healed. That it was in a forever state of pieces. At that point in my life I was vulnerable, I was young, I was naive, insecure, and ultimately I was in love for the first time. Then I fell again, unfortunently time was of essence and a key factor in the heartbreak to come. I have no regrets in my life. Moreover; I have lessons learned which have brought me to where I am today. After the heartbreak I thought I had to be with someone to be happy. I had been "that" girl who had consistently always been in a relationship. It was where I was most comfortable, least vulnerable, and most used to. Yet, recently I have learned that I have grown into such a strong person. And I can actually step up and admit that now. Rather than fretting on the past, we must indulge in the present and dream for the future. Lets remmember though. The past is significant in that it has helped you grow as an individual, and has inevitabley made you who you are today. But we shouldn't think about what if's and why's? We need to say to ourselves that is the past, there is nothing that can be done to change it. The present and future are what you can change. You can be who you want to be, go where you want to go, and live the way you want to live.
Me, well I am a small town girl awaiting my break into the bigger picture. Yes, this small town is good to come home too, but I know it's almost time for me to leave. My memories are here, but my future is not. I need to venture into a new world with new opportunities. I am looking forward to meeting new people, endeavoring into new adventures, and forever living the dream I write about everyday. Maybe one day I will tell you all the list of things I would like to venture into. But for now...I will leave it at this.

Always fight for what you want and never settle. Never let anyone tell you that you can not do something, and if they do use that energy to achieve your goals that much more. Prove them wrong. Do what makes YOU happy, and be true to yourself. The question I always ask my self, is what you see in the mirror who you want to be? And if it isn't do something about it. And I am not referring to looks. I am referring to what you see in your eyes, the person who lies beneath them. Who is that person, and what do THEY want? Ultimately it is your life, noone elses. It is your playground, so play:) Go to distance, dream big, and question the world to get answers. It is like Ariel in the Little Mermaid said, "Ready to know what the people know, Ask 'em my questions and get some answers. What's a fire and why does it - what's the word? Burn? When's it my turn? Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above? Out of the sea. Wish I could be Part of that world."

Much love,

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

You are no longer invisible. We promise.

Hunger falling upon their faces
A life of lost identity
This world is full of many races
Eagerly searching for serenity

Innocent lives, put on the battle lines
No choice is to be made
In love we must learn to shine
A country in need of aid

Smiles which light up each room
Their names are lost in time
Joseph Kony takes souls to consume
Forcing those into organized crime

Laughter lacks, while screams prevail
Attention must be brought
Making a difference on a larger scale
A war which must be fought

-Crystal Kimberly (me:])

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo


June 22 & 23rd Lobbying in Washington D.C.
For more information : www.invisiblechildren.com
Every war has an end. So lets finally end this one.
Spread the word, spread the love, and most of all spread the peace.
The Rescue was a huge success with over 100 cities all over the world being rescued by some of the most significant moguls. Now it is time to spread our wings and use our voices even more to finally end the suffering of thousands of innocent children in Uganda.

The Dream

So in life we all have our dreams. We all have our goals and our standards in which we would like to live up to. Not only for ourselves but for others as well. I personally and utterly believe that if someone has the underlying passion for something that nothing can or will be strong enough to stand in the way. Undoubtedly in my mind obstacles are merely the things in which you see when you take your eyes off of your goal. Life is full of many opportunities, and you must venture into them with an open mind, a beating heart, and a thriving determination. If at some points in your journey you run into obstacles, you must fight through them. If you love something enough you will jump over anything to accomplish it. Your eyes, your heart, and your feet will bring you to your life, your destiny, your fate, your love, and your goals. Whatever it may be...fight for it. Nothing in life worth it is easily given. Everything you fight for,and everything you love is worth the time, the patience, the love , and the fight. I, myself, personally have a secret love in which I can not go a day without thinking about. I wake up thinking about it and I go to bed thinking about it. Why? I really can not tell you. Is it even realistic? Probably not. But am I IN love with it? (Yes I said IN LOVE.)Yes I am. After much contemplation I have decided that if someone can't live a day without thinking about something, they always partake in it, and it always makes them happy, then it is worth the time and effort, realistic or not. Fight for your dreams, no matter what they are. Do not allow anyone to tell you you can not accomplish them or you aren't good enough, et cetera. If it means enough to you, go get it. & if people are telling you those things, use that in your defense and drive that much harder to prove them wrong. Never give up on something, because you do not want to look back and regret anything. You want to at least know that you put everything you had into something. That you utterly used your entire soul to obtain something. That is love. And I have written a poem about a love in which will encompass my life for eternity. It may seem silly, it may seem crazy and it may seem unrealistic, but i don't care. This is my life, and I will live it how I want to live it. I love what I love. I am who I am, and I only have to make sense to myself. What makes me happy does, and I am proud of it. You have the freedom to pass judgement and opinions, but if you know me, then you know how important this all really is. Furthermore; your DREAMS are important, and don't ever let anyone ever down play them...ENJOY:) && let me know what you think!

(sorry guys I had to take the actual poem down )

xoxo
Perfectly Imperfect
Crystal Kimberly

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"The actions you take today, will echo in eternity..."
-Gladiator

April 25,2009
The RESCUE
Invisible Children
115 Cities
10 Countries
ONE statement...
Free Joseph Kony's Child Soldiers!
Attention needs to be brought to this issue and in order for this to happen WE need to form together to make the difference. Just because we aren't seeing this crisis in our everyday lives here in America, doesn't mean that it isn't important!

xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

April 25, 2009

"No more pain, No more sufferin', Just start dancing and shine in the love "
-Maino

Support The Rescue - April 25th

Support- April 25th. All over the world in 115 cities. One statement will make a huge movement come alive. www.invisiblechildren.com to sign up and get more information:)

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"Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days

And you dont know how or why, but youve lost your way

Have no fear when your tears are fallin

I will hear your spirit callin

And I swear

Ill be there come what may

When you have no light to guide you

And no one to walk to walk beside you

I will come to you

Oh I will come to you

When the night is dark and stormy

You wont have to reach out for me

I will come to you

Oh I will come to you..."

-Hanson

You are who you are.

BE REAL, BE YOU!

Don't run away from who you are.

Embrace it:)

In life you are going to be thrown through many obstacles. You may have to endure things you never deemed possible. However; you may live your ultimate dream. You may find a path you are fit to walk. One in which you are fit to not be lost on. Whether you feel like you are constantly having to overcome obstacles or you are in a state of utter happiness you are who you are and you can't forget that.

There are times when people get so wrapped up in their surroundings that they tend to only focus on what is going on around them and not inside of them. This sometimes leads them to lose who they are as a person. Ultimately this is sometimes conceived as being fake. From my experience the difference between the two is this:

When a person is so caught up on things in which they can't control, on things that shouldn't be their main worry, and on things in which don't really matter they sometimes lose who they are as a person. This shouldn't be mistaken for being fake. Those people are those whom for instance; have gone through heartbreak and have lost someone they love so much and no longer know who they are, or someone who has just overtime been placed in an uncomfortable environment and they have lost themselves. FAKE is different. This is when someone has actually chosen to not be real. Someone who pretends to be something that they are not. They lead people to believe that they are one person, when they really aren't. I have said many times that it is significant in life to be real. To be who you are and not change for anyone. Being you is essential if you want to not only have others respect you, but for you to ultimately have respect for YOURSELF. You won't get anywhere in life being a fake individual. Once a person stops being real, they tend to lose all aspects of respect, all trust people have in them, and inevitably reputations are burst and lost.

Just because you aren't perfect (noone is, and nothing is) doesn't mean you should hide the REAL you. I personally think that ones imperfections are their best qualities. When you look in the mirror and question yourself, that could be the time that someone out there could be looking at you in utter amazement. I think that imperfection is beautiful. As I always say being Perfectly Imperfect is something in which everyone grasps and should hold onto. There is someone out there whom may hear your words, see your tears, feel your happiness, smell your scent, and taste your love and think its the most gorgeous thing in this world. So why become a fake, stereotypical individual? Being different is amazing. No two people are the same, and to want to be pretend to be something that isn't you, is shameful. (In my mind) Personally I think you should embrace who you are. You should love your life and every realm of it. Ofcourse people run into obstacles, but fighting through those obstacles is critical . It makes it actually worth it. Some individuals think that what they see in the magazines, on television screens, or in clubs is what they should look like or act like. However; YOU should NOT. And sadly there are people out there who intentionally create lies in order to lead others on to believing they are one person. When they honestly are the opposite.

Be proud of who you are. Love your life and the people in it. Your family and true friends will embrace who you really are. In today's world is important to never lose yourself. To never forget where you came from, and to ultimately not forget your morals and principles on the way. It is a tough world, but we were put here for a reason. Each of us has a path in which we must endeavor onto. One in which will make a difference. Now that difference may be on others or on you. That is a choice you must make. . .

Perfectly Imperfect

xoxo

-Crystal Kimberly

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You can't have a better tomorrow if you're always thinking about yesterday. - C.Roth

Smile:)

Smile, because you don't know whose life it will change:).

(picture-invisblechildren.com)