Whisper in my ear, love.

I just recently turned twenty one - as in three days ago- and everyone asks me if I feel different? Well the answer is no. I feel the same. The same as I did that three days ago. But I have realized I do feel like a different person. I have changed over this past year, and I am happy with that change. I have experienced things I never thought I would, I have talked about things I never thought I would, and I have the most amazing friends-most from my high school years. Don't get me wrong i love the people and friends i have met since my entrance into college, but the friends in which I met in high school have a special place in my <3heart. Those relationships weren't forced, and they have had years and years to develop. I know whenever I come home I will come home to the most amazing faces, hearts, and souls. I know these are the people who were there for me, and will always be there for me. These are the people who don't whisper behind my back, these are the people who truly love me for who i am and who I want to become. These are the people who will never doubt me, and these are the people who have forever embedded themselves in my heart. To some they lose contact with these people and its unfortunate. But me, I will forever hold onto the relationships I developed in my early years, it is imperative. But anyway, the reason for this blog update is solely to restate all I am grateful for. I am grateful for my amazing family, my amazing friends, and my amazing life. Sometimes we run into hard times and we forget all we have to actually be thankful for. Well I am thankful for every sunrise and sunset, I am thankful for every heartbreak and heal. I am thankful for every beat of nature and every look in every eye. I am thankful for music and I am thankful for my voice. I am thankful that I have freedom of speech, and I am thankful that I am not afraid to voice it. I am thankful for my life. I am thankful for your life. And I am thankful for what you are thankful. This world lacks the amount of love we really should have. Love is a precious gift we don't express enough. There is so much love to give yet people don't give it. There is so much love available to exuberate, yet people hide it. Love is an amazing thing and we should treasure it. WE should tell the ones we love we love them on a daily basis. We should be kind to all, not worry about drama, not worry about bad things rather rejoice in the good. Look into the eyes of those passing and smile. Open a door for someone. Little acts of kindness could change someones life. And if you do not believe this then you should learn it. People find the smallest acts of kindness credible. They find these acts better than fake proposals of kindness. Love those who deserve to be loved, and forgive those who have loved in the past. Everyone has a past, but everyone also has a future. There is room for forgiveness. There is room for hope. And There is definitely room for love. Break down walls people cave themselves behind, open your hearts, and sing kindness. It will change our world. I promise. (and I keep my promises)

i love you.

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

What came from me writing what I was thinking.

Sometimes our hearts hurt more than we reveal. Sometimes our smiles lack the feelings in which we conceal. Sometimes what we hide is who we are. And sometimes where we are suppose to be is not very far. But who we are is what we show. Because to the world that is what we bestow. It's like rainy day. In the month of May. Unwanted, but expected. Vulnerable, but protected. We walk on the edge, in hopes of not falling. But if we do, we know it's our calling. As laughter sweeps the lives of many. Tears embody the hearts of plenty. Fill our lives with hopes and joys. Dreaming of maintaining ones poise. We strive to be who we want to be. But it's affected by that of which people see. Truth unfolds in the lies of some. While lies unfold from what some become. Whatever life brings. The heart should be what always sings. No more echoes from those around you. Time to learn from all you've been through. A love once loved. Or a hurt you forever have shoved. A lesson comes with each mistake. And a lesson comes with each accomplishment. Always be real, and never fake. And never hide behind a wall of cement. Those who hide. Are unable to confide. Those who hide. Are hurting inside. Breathe in each moment, and in each moment take a breath. If you must, let the tears fall. If you must, punch down each and every wall. Life is a path, in which each must take. Which ones you choose, is a choice you must make.

Part of That World.

So as I sit here on Monday night, technically Tuesday morning, all I can think about is the future. What is it that it has in it's hands for me. What presents does it have for me to unwrap, and ultimately what dreams will it make available for me to live. I am at a point in my life where I am very happy with myself. I love my family, my friends, and all those surrounding me. However; I am ready to start doing things for me. I have always been the person to put everyone before myself, and I will continue to do so. But I have to start living MY life. I need to stop worrying about if I am making everyone else proud, and I need to ultimately make myself proud. There is so much I want to do in life. More than I could ever put into words. Are all those things realistic? Possibly yes, possibly no. Yet there is a life in my heart that is calling my name and has been calling my name for years. I am ready to take it off the back burner. I am ready to venture into what will make me happy. I am ready to rise to the challenges, get my feet wet, and jump out of my comfort zone. Those who know me know I am a very determined and driven individual. Once my mind is set on something I will work undoubtedly harder that I have ever before to attain that goal.
Today I sat down with a good friend. A friend who has been there for me through a lot. We discussed how much has happened in both of our lives in just the last couple of months. And it may not be significant to some people, but It has been to us. We have met some amazing people, done some incredible things, and dreamt countless nights of what could possibly come from our goals in life. Not many people my age KNOW what they want out of life. Not many people know what they want to do for the rest of their life. I do. I know the exact moments that will send chills up my spine to leave me utterly speechless. I know that when I close my eyes and see my dreams in my mind, i know that it won't be a dream much longer. However; it will become a reality. I have always been pushed to reach beyond the ceiling. I've been taught that I have no limit as a person. As my life has progressed, the ages rolling on by, I have learned so much. I have grown into the person I am today. Soon, as in eleven days, I will be turning 21. Yes the big TWENTY - ONE. Well who would of thought that by the age of twenty-one I would have this mind-set.
I went from being in love to heartbreak to being in love again to heartbreak to once again being in love. But this time. I am not in love with a significant other. However; I am in love with my life. I am in love with my dreams and the potential of my future. When my heart was first broken, I thought it couldn't be healed. That it was in a forever state of pieces. At that point in my life I was vulnerable, I was young, I was naive, insecure, and ultimately I was in love for the first time. Then I fell again, unfortunently time was of essence and a key factor in the heartbreak to come. I have no regrets in my life. Moreover; I have lessons learned which have brought me to where I am today. After the heartbreak I thought I had to be with someone to be happy. I had been "that" girl who had consistently always been in a relationship. It was where I was most comfortable, least vulnerable, and most used to. Yet, recently I have learned that I have grown into such a strong person. And I can actually step up and admit that now. Rather than fretting on the past, we must indulge in the present and dream for the future. Lets remmember though. The past is significant in that it has helped you grow as an individual, and has inevitabley made you who you are today. But we shouldn't think about what if's and why's? We need to say to ourselves that is the past, there is nothing that can be done to change it. The present and future are what you can change. You can be who you want to be, go where you want to go, and live the way you want to live.
Me, well I am a small town girl awaiting my break into the bigger picture. Yes, this small town is good to come home too, but I know it's almost time for me to leave. My memories are here, but my future is not. I need to venture into a new world with new opportunities. I am looking forward to meeting new people, endeavoring into new adventures, and forever living the dream I write about everyday. Maybe one day I will tell you all the list of things I would like to venture into. But for now...I will leave it at this.

Always fight for what you want and never settle. Never let anyone tell you that you can not do something, and if they do use that energy to achieve your goals that much more. Prove them wrong. Do what makes YOU happy, and be true to yourself. The question I always ask my self, is what you see in the mirror who you want to be? And if it isn't do something about it. And I am not referring to looks. I am referring to what you see in your eyes, the person who lies beneath them. Who is that person, and what do THEY want? Ultimately it is your life, noone elses. It is your playground, so play:) Go to distance, dream big, and question the world to get answers. It is like Ariel in the Little Mermaid said, "Ready to know what the people know, Ask 'em my questions and get some answers. What's a fire and why does it - what's the word? Burn? When's it my turn? Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above? Out of the sea. Wish I could be Part of that world."

Much love,

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo
Crystal Kimberly

You are no longer invisible. We promise.

Hunger falling upon their faces
A life of lost identity
This world is full of many races
Eagerly searching for serenity

Innocent lives, put on the battle lines
No choice is to be made
In love we must learn to shine
A country in need of aid

Smiles which light up each room
Their names are lost in time
Joseph Kony takes souls to consume
Forcing those into organized crime

Laughter lacks, while screams prevail
Attention must be brought
Making a difference on a larger scale
A war which must be fought

-Crystal Kimberly (me:])

Perfectly Imperfect
xoxo


June 22 & 23rd Lobbying in Washington D.C.
For more information : www.invisiblechildren.com
Every war has an end. So lets finally end this one.
Spread the word, spread the love, and most of all spread the peace.
The Rescue was a huge success with over 100 cities all over the world being rescued by some of the most significant moguls. Now it is time to spread our wings and use our voices even more to finally end the suffering of thousands of innocent children in Uganda.